Environmental Energy

Do I give off negative energy?

Do we really see the things in others that we don't like about ourself?

You know that person you just can't deal with, something about them just rubs you the wrong way? Have you looked in the mirror? Is this about you? Or are you merely a product of your environment?

"They" say, what you don't like in others, reflects the things you don't like about yourself."

I say, I'm a Pisces and I am a reflection of my environment. So how does that work?

Okay, so that was the question and answer portion of tonights post. I feed off my surroundings, this is not something new. I have been doing it all my life. If I'm in a bad situation, I'm in a bad mood. If something bothers me, I stay angry until I have some sort of closure. I'm fine tuned to my environment. If there is negative energy, I automatically feel it. I get upset and emotional about these things. I hold on to them longer and meticulously pick it apart and obsess over it until I feel better or understand the reason.

I was in class tonight and the topic came up in passing, very quickly. Everyone else carried on, no one gave it a second thought (it was the simple thought that what we don't like in others is what we don't like in ourself.) However, I held on to it for a minute pondering how this is connected to me and how I feed off my environment. Then, made myself a little footnote to bring it here, as I felt I can rant about it freely.

At the end of class I was given an opportunity, we were asked to write anything. So the professor can asses our writing style. With in a framework of course. However I was stuck on this. So this is what I chose to write about. Because of my insentient obsessing, I couldn't let go of it.

However, as I sat down to write this I found my conclusion. If I was being graded on this post, I think it would reflect poorly on style alone. But this is about me and this is my blog. So I can do whatever my pretty little fingers want to type.

What I decided after about one minute sitting here was, I have to find a new way to get internal closure and move right along. This may be the best way to work through these so called reflections of self, changing the way I interact with others and what I have always seen as my inevitable out come.

Good night.

:)