To Be.. Or Not To Be..

A B*tch…
So that’s my question.

These are some thoughts I was having. It’s nothing too interesting, so if you don’t normally read here. You might not want to start with this piece :)

I have issues. I'm a generally very friendly person. Okay so sometimes I come off as a bit intimidating and scary at first. But once you get to know me. I'm really a chilled out hippie at heart. (And starting to look like it on the outside.)
Anyway, not the point: I think my point is. I don’t know how to handle some people. Specifically the selfish kind who always focus on themselves. It doesn’t matter who they step on, on the way up as long as they have their own back covered… its all good.
I write them off automatically. It’s like first nature. I don’t know why I do it. Maybe it’s a recurring thing from my childhood and I’m sure a shrink would blame my father. But I'm not choosing to go down that route. I want to deal with it. I want to not roll my eyes when someone I don’t like is speaking especially when they talk sh*t. I want to be able to react like anyone else would in stead of cutting them down to size. It just irritates me. I feel like when you don’t like something about someone else it’s always a reflection of something you don’t like about yourself.
does this mean I'm a selfish person who talks a lot of smack who people find hard to communicate to and oy... what am i?

I always prided myself on trying to be a kind honest person who people can relate to and come to if they need something.. my door is always open and I always answer my phone if I'm needed. So why would I have such a hard time with this person??
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